Month: October 2005

  • Had a wonderful time answering phones at church and came back with an awesome respect for our church secretary who does so much work at the church. Sometimes I think it is easy to take such jobs for granted, but not only does she do the little bit that I did, but oh so much more.


    I have been on the computer precisely one minute and my son is asking to get on, I am defending my territory though for a few minutes.


    Back to Know Your Enemy, Part 3


    Pastor Don talked about how satan was cast down to the earth, and with him came 1/3 of the angels.


    We then went back to Genesis, and studied the temptation of Adam and Eve. Pastor Don pointed out that that temptation was the same temptation that satan succumbed to. He told Eve that if she ate of the forbidden fruit, she would be like God knowing good and evil. satan has a limited repertoire’, and this is one of the ways that he tempts us much. Telling us the lies that we know what is best, that we can decide for ourselves, that we can pick and choose what we believe.


    Truth is, we are not like God in the least, but if we buy into satan’s lies, we will end up in despair.


    A careful reading of the Old Testament shows how these fallen angels started interacting with men, and produced a race of giants like Goliath. This happened in Noah’s day, and God destroyed them with the flood. But then it occurred again in a pattern, and there were races of giants like Goliath who walked the face of the earth.


    Those angels who sinned such were, according to 2 Peter 2:4 “For if God did not spare the angels who sinned, but cast them down to hell and delivered them into chains of darkness, to be reserved for judgement; and did not spare the ancient world, but saved Noah, one of eight people, a preacher of righteousness, bringing in the flood on the world of the ungodly;  and turning the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah into ashes, condemned them to destruction, making then an example to those afterward would live ungodly; and delivered righteous Lot, who was oppressed by the filthy conduct of the wicked.”


    These ungodly angels created a race of Nephalim. Pastor Don pointed out that many of the creatures in mythology also speak of these fallen angel’s actions,.


    And yet, praise God, He had a plan to deliver us out of all of this through a line of descendants that led to Jesus.


    And God even hid the line in the begats of the Bible. Pastor Don showed us this message of salvation in Chapter 5 of Genesis.


    If you look at the meanings of the names in a concordance you can verify this:


    ADAM -mankind
    SETH: appoint, to turn the face toward
    ENOSH- mortal grievous sorrow calamity
    CAINAN-to lament, to mourn
    MAHALALEL-God who is praised
    JARED-comes down
    ENOCH-to instruct and to consecrate
    METHUSELAH-to die, to be sent forth as a prophet
    LAMECH-to be smitten and scourged
    NOAH-to give rest


    to be


    SHEM-renowned
    HAM-burning
    JAPETH- to be widespread, world wide


    What a wonderful blessing God has for us.


    Hope you have a blessed weekend.


     

  • Please forgive me for not getting to your sites or writing new entries, it has been a period of intense business. Today and tomorrow I am going to be answering phones at church all day, as the secretary is on vacation. I just haven’t been home. We have had boy scout advancement (and I am the advancement person), games that I want to attend and cheer my kids, adult leaders’ meetings for girl scouts (where I wear many different hats). And add to that the homework from my Bible studies. And of course there is that little thing about kids, house and husband.


    I am hoping that by this weekend things will settle down somewhat. At least that is my wish.


    Praying for you, and caring, even if I have been rather absent.


    Also, please pray for me, I seem to be in a bit of a downward spiral in diet and in sorting out issues. Perhaps it is hands-on experience with dealing with the enemy. But I do covet your prayers.


    Heather

  • (Added note) God seems to be working in my life in the area I am writing about. I opened up my Bible for my reading and what did I come to?  1 Corinthians 15:9-10 For I am the least of the apostles, who am not worthy to be called an apostle, because I persecuted the church of God. But by the grace of God I am what I am, and His grace toward me was not in vain; but I labored more abundantly than they all, yet not I, but the grace of God which was with me. Oh can I relate to verse 9, that I am not worthy… (end of added note)


    A devotional came via the interent today and I was struck by how much it applied to what I am dealing with today (I will include it at the bottom of this page). I do promise to try and write Part 3 of the Bible study later today, but right now there are others who need the computer to begin to write essays, etc.


    I realized that in a way I have compartmentalized God in my life, letting Him have complete control over some areas and in other areas there was a no trespassing sign. Today I was praying that I want God in charge of every little thing of my life. That is scary to me because I still struggle somewhat with memories of those who were in control of my life when I was a child who had intentions that were not in my best interests.


    The comment in the devotional below struck me also because I hadn’t thought of obedience out of fear or obedience out of love. I just saw the word OBEDIENCE. But it is true, much of what I used to do was to obey out of fear because as a child my life was threatened literally. If I didn’t do the things my parents wanted instantly, without question, even the repulsive things, then I risked a beating or being killed (literally). My testimony is on Oct.  7 of this month, if you wanted to see that. So I carried this obedience out of fear over to the realm of my obedience to God.


    Now I have known some Christians to have obedience to God out of fear, you know, if you do that you are going to go to Hell, or God is watching you, so you better be careful what you do or say or think. But somehow, while that keeps us from sinning, I don’t think that is God’s heart for us. I think He really does want us to have obedience out of love.


    I think that if there was a currency in God’s kingdom it would be love. Sometimes I think that I fail miserably at love. I still struggle with feeling that somehow something was broken inside of me due to my past and that I will never be able to love God in the way that He would like. There isn’t that spontaneity inside of me. Oh I am not cold and calculating, but at the same time I feel like I walk through life looking at others, trying to imitate what is “normal” because I never knew what normal was. So I kind of feel like a fraud. Now people do not see me that way, this is the hurt part inside of me talking, and I do genuinely love people and care about them. But when I look at myself in the mirror I see someone damaged.


    I was talking with Pastor Don on Thursday and I told Him some of the feelings above, and also told him that there was still a sense of guilt, that somehow I often wonder why God would want me in His kingdom. That maybe I crossed a fine line in my sinning during the years that I was in rebellion to God. I have been dealing with depression, and a lot of thoughts about life being worth living or not, and if I can really be effective in God’s kingdom. It has not been a stellar week emotionally.


    Pastor Don said that I am like an airplane pilot flying on my perceptions instead of the instruments. He went through possible sins that I might have committed and if I had asked for forgiveness. I hadn’t sinned as I had in my past, and I have asked forgiveness from God when I notice that I have sinned. We talked about how 1 John 1:9 applies If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. Pastor Don uses that verse with me a lot. I guess I sort of have an inferiority complex regarding God, and just cannot conceive of his agape love. Then he pointed out that no matter what my feelings are, the instruments show that I am righteous under the blood of Jesus, and that I cannot be what my feelings are trying to convince me that I am. Feelings are not the facts.


    I am still struggling with depression, am falling off my diet, and wanting to run. So I covet your prayers in this. I will try to write something more of the Bible study later today. Have a blessed day.


    Here is the devotional:


    Love God Through and Through


        “Teacher, which is the most important commandment in the law
        of Moses?” Jesus replied, “`You must love the Lord your God
        with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind.’ This
        is the first and greatest commandment.”

                                — Matthew 22:36-38 (NLT)

     
    KEY THOUGHT:
    Total love. That’s what God wants. No more, no less. Total love. Total
    love is different than total obedience. While obedience is important,
    even sometimes necessary even when we don’t understand why, it is not
    love. Obedience can show love, but it can also show fear. If we love
    God, we will obey him. Total love is different than total knowledge.
    Knowledge is good. Knowledge can lead us to know more about God. But
    knowledge can never replace loving God. If we love God, we will be able
    to know him. Total love is not feeling good about God. Some things that
    love asks us to do are not fun and do not leave us feeling good. But
    love does help us develop deep feelings for God. Heart, soul, mind and
    strength. Jesus wants total love. Love from our emotions. Love from our
    spirits. Love from our knowledge. Love in our physical actions. Love
    that reaches in and combines all of who we are and hope to be. Love for
    God is eternal. It joins us to the King of Ages in joyful appreciation
    of all he has done for us, is doing through us, and will do for us in
    the future..


    TODAY’S PRAYER:
    Lord God Almighty, I reverence your holy name. I want to obey your
    every commandment. I want to become a loving servant and bring glory to
    you for all you have done for me. But most of all Father, I want you to
    know how much I love you. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.



    >> The WJD! web page has related scriptures and the
    >> full text of today’s key passage.  Read it at:
       http://www.heartlight.org/wjd/matthew/1023-wjd.html

  • I got this on a morning devotional I receive. Boy can I relate to this:


    Why I’m Quitting, by Rubel Shelly

    God, there’s just not enough room for both of us to be in charge of my
    life. It’s not that I haven’t taken the job seriously, mind you! I have
    fretted, laid awake nights, and worked out the most detailed and
    wonderful schemes. The problem is not with the planning and scheming.
    It’s with the “control” thing. Or, perhaps I should have said, the
    lack-of-control thing. I don’t really have any.

    Oh, I know. You have repeatedly told me that you are competent to be in
    charge and that putting you in charge would relieve me of worry. But I
    seem to enjoy it. The fact that I’m worried about tomorrow seems to
    tell my sick soul that I somehow have a semblance of control over it.
    But I don’t. I just don’t.

    Then there’s the mess I make of things. The worried-over plan begins to
    be put in motion, one of those things or people I can’t control comes
    into play, and the bus runs into the ditch! I try to press on. I try to
    force outcomes. The ditch gets deeper, and the pain begins to come.

    Even so, you show up and offer to take control. You ask me — without
    ever forcing things — to turn loose of the wheel and trust you to
    steer. Sometimes I want to let you have control. I really do. Then
    something wells up inside me that makes me push you away — to tell you
    I can do it all by myself. Truth be told, I’m often thinking that just
    as soon as I get this thing out of the ditch, then I’m going to ask you
    to drive. Unfortunately, I never do.

    Then there are the people on the bus with me. They are always the
    people I love most and for whose welfare I care most passionately. When
    I drive, then wreck, then push you away, I sense their disappointment.
    Even that, however, hasn’t been enough to this point. It kills me to
    know I’m hurting them, but I still want to steer. I want to be at the
    controls. I want to be in charge.

    The time has come to try another approach. Oh, it’s not that I want to
    be heard saying that your way is the way of last resort for me. Or
    maybe it is. But I’m just so tired. And bunged up. And you and I both
    know things aren’t getting better with me in charge. So that’s why I’ve
    made up my mind.

    God, I’m quitting. No more Mr. Know-It-All. No more having to be in
    charge. No more playing like I know more about myself than you do.
    You’re in control from this point forward. Heart and mind and body.
    Family and personal. Career and social. Thursday as well as Sunday.
    It’s all yours now. I resign as co-regent!

    And even if you were (understandably) reluctant to take over after the
    mess I’ve made to date, I’m warning you: From now on you’re God — and
    I’m not!

    ———
      (c) 2005 Used by permission. From Rubel Shelly’s “FAX of Life”
      printed each Tuesday. See Faith Matters
      <http://www.faithmatters.com/> for previous issues of the “FAX of
      Life.”

  • Thank you, guess the 10,000th person will be a mystery. I am so thrilled to spend time here on Xanga. I have learned so much and been so edified. Looking forward to what the next 10,000 visits will bring.


    Just got back from NYC where I went on a date. According to our pastor a date is when you and your husband go out without the kids and he spends money on you. So my husband drove me to the city and he spent money on me at the dentist’s office as I got a few teeth drilled. Guess it qualifies as a date, but frankly I can think of more romantic dates. We also spent a bit of time at an overlook rest stop sharing lunch (way better).


    I will write more of the Bible study later, but right now it is Jim’s turn on the computer.


    Heather

  • Wow, just noticed that I am nearing a major milestone. I am so close to 10,000 visitors according to my site meter at the bottom of the page. If you are my 10,000th visitor, let me know. Am curious who it will be.


    Have a great Monday.


    Heather

  • A few pictures. My daughter went on a class field trip to New York City, and she took some awesome pictures. The first is of her taken by a friend, I am in love with the shadow picture, and she loves animals.



     



     


  •  KNOW YOUR ENEMY, Part 2


    One member in our group said, “Righteous people go to Church but it doesn’t make you righteous to go to Church. A person of faith will do good works, but good works will not earn your way into heaven.” Even today in the church there are serious debates about works and the law and grace. Satan is happy to have dissention in the ranks. But we must have our heart come into cooperation with God and do our works based on love of God and God’s glory. Any other way leads to pride in the Body of Christ.


    All of us at some time or another struggle with demons. Demonic activity does occur in the Church and among people. The devil wants to take us out mentally, physically, and emotionally. Pastor Don asked us this question, “Why is it when you are under spiritual attack that many get the idea to leave the Church.” It is as if God is separating the person out for the slaughter, and it is at the time of demonic attack that we most need the Church. (By church we are talking about the people and pastors and others in the Body of Christ, not the institution of the Church. This is about relationship with God and Jesus and the Holy Spirit, and relationship among fellow believers.)


    One sign of demonic oppression is that when we are facing a problem such as a depression, we are looking to put the blame on someone else or some outside situation. Not every problem we have or situation we have is demonic oppression, we are not to be looking for demons under every rock. But there are times when your day starts perfectly, the sun is shining, and out of seemingly nowhere a spirit of depression descends. Or you are doing very well, and perhaps before something important, wars break out among your kids, when usually they are peace loving. If a mood, sickness, seems to come from left field, then there is a chance it could be demonic oppression.


    Blaspheme of the Holy Spirit


    Hebrews 6:4-6 talks about the subject of the Blaspheme of the Holy Spirit: For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted the heavenly gift, and have become partakers of the Holy Spirit, and have tasted the good word of God and the powers of the age to come, if they fall away, to renew them again to repentance, since they crucify again for themselves the Son of God, and put Him to an open shame.


    This is a topic that has many people wondering what are the conditions to do this. (Heather’s note: If you are worried about Blaspheming the Holy Spirit it is a good indication that you are not, because if you were, you would not care whether or not you were). There are five conditions that are necessary to qualify for this and all five must be present.


    1. You must be enlightened about the total truth about Jesus, God and the Holy Spirit.


    2. You must have tasted of the Heavenly gift (Jesus).


    3. You must have received the Holy Spirit and have walked in the power of the Holy Spirit.


    4. You must realize the Word of God, both Written and Spoken is active in your life, and that you see the fruit of your studies.


    5. You have the powers of the age to come (gift of prophesy), you must have received prophesy and understand that Jesus is the source of prophesy.


    It is a rare person who is mature in all of these areas. Most of us backslide in our walks with God, but this is a person who is a mature Christian, who operates in the powers of the Holy Spirit, knows Jesus, and has walked long in the path of Christianity, and they deliberately, blatantly turn their backs on Jesus, and reject salvation. Coldly, calculatedly. This would not pertain to a person who is hurting say from the death of a loved one who speaks indiscrete words, but a person who embraces other gods, be it sex, idols, other religions, and rejects Jesus. (I elaborated from memory here, any errors in the above is my error).


    One Biblical example of the above would be Judas when He betrayed Christ. He had known Jesus, worked in the Power of the Holy Spirit when he was sent out to do healings with the apostles, he knew the Word of God and had received the teachings of Jesus, yet He rejected Jesus and turned traitor to Jesus.


    Moses would not have qualified, he was punished by not being able to enter the Promised land, but Moses still had his love of God and his repentance for the mistake he made.


    When God gets angry in the Bible in every case that we know, He sits down. (Heather’s note, I pray that God never has to sit down in regard to any action on my part).


    Back to satan. The devil is not original. He copies the things of God in his kingdom. So even satan has a hierarchy in his kingdom similar to God’s. But unlike in God’s kingdom, satan has much more rebellion in his ranks.


    Jude 6 (For those who may not know, Jude has only one chapter, so the 6 refers to the verse). And the angels who did not keep their proper domain, but left their own abode, He has reserved in everlasting chains under darkness for the judgement of the great day:


    The angels who stayed with God are in a hierarchy under the monarchy of God. What did the angels do that made God decide to put them in chains, where they will remain until the last days in Revelation, to be released for a short period of time, led by Abaddon?


    Jude 7-9 gives us a picture of that. as Sodom and Gomorrah, and the cities around them in a similar manner to these, having given themselves over to sexual immorality and gone after strange flesh, are set forth as an example, suffering the vengeance of eternal fire. Likewise also these dreamers defile the flesh, reject authority, and speak evil of dignitaries. Yet Michael the archangel, in contending with the devil, when he disputed about the body of Moses, dared not bring against him a reviling accusation, but said, “The Lord rebuke you.”


    (Heather’s note, notice that Michael left rebuking in God’s hand, so should we.) But what the above verses imply is that the angels who were fallen committed sexual immorality with mankind on the earth.


    Next installment we will go back to the Old Testament and see places where that occurred.


    Guess who needs the computer.


    Heather


     


     

  • We had an intense Discipleship class yesterday, one that I am going to share because the topic has been hard on my heart lately. Just looking at how much satan is invading our world these days, how defiant he is. And after hearing testimony after testimony of how we have been pulled out of the pit, out of satan’s grip by Jesus, I am so grateful. But it is still important to know our enemy.


    Pastor Don remarked that we have to know our enemy, how to beat him, engage him, and prepare ourselves.


    (an aside – in the 23rd Psalm when it says our cup runneth over, it means that it is an invitation to stay. For in those days you stayed with a host and ate with him. The host had to protect you and take care of your needs. In the morning when the host poured your drink, if he filled the cup part way it meant your visit was over and you had to leave, if the host poured the cup full and kept on pouring until the cup overflowed, it meant you stayed another day and received blessings abundantly). Isn’t that awesome, that God pours our cups to overflowing?


    Isaiah 14 talks about the devil and his fall. In verse 12 we learn that his place was once in Heaven and he fell from Heaven. In verse 13 it says, “he said in his heart”, the problem was a heart problem. It involved pride, arrogance, jealousy and rebellion. In verse 14 you see that satan said, “I will be like the Most High.”


    This is the same lie that satan told Eve, that if she ate the forbidden fruit (rebelled against God’s rule) that she would be like God. He opposed God and took down 1/3 of the angels.


    Then Pastor Don talked about the political Hierarchy of God’s kingdom. It is not a democracy, but a benevolent monarchy. Where God rules for the benefit of the common good. We went into a bit of the history of our country and Pastor Don pointed out that when the founding fathers wrote the Constitution that they were thinking that they would be the ones having the democratic vote, there were major discussions about how could people who were uninformed of the issues vote, but the voting pool increased. Ultimately now all have the right to vote. Of course, today there are many who vote without knowing all the facts.


    The problem for satan was who decides to rise up and take down God. Obviously angels have free will, for they had to chose to rebel against God, they couldn’t have rebelled if they did not have free will. So satan and 1/3 of the angels rebelled, the other angels made the choice to stay with God and obey God.


    satan has a limited repertoire of behaviors, most of them involve getting people to disobey, move from he truth, and to not listen to God. He also has a vested interest in preventing Jesus from being born and from returning, so works hard to pervert the bloodline of Jesus.


    Pastor Don then talked about Moses and the sin that he committed that prevented him from getting into the promised land. Relating it to Hebrews 6


    Moses knew about the heavenly hierarchy, He knew God, and The Holy Spirit, and about Jesus whom he called the Rock. He knew that all three had the power of life and death, and that their Word is absolute.


    Moses did not go into the promised land because he interfered with the picture that God was portraying about Jesus. Moses did repent of his disobedience, but God could not let him into the promised land because then it would have meant that there would have had to be two saviors, that it would mean that the law and good works could help one get into the promised land. It would have clouded the picture of the savior dying ONCE for ALL sin.


    Moses followed God’s instructions at Meribah to provide water for the Israelites by striking the rock (Jesus) once and water gushed out, enough water to provide for over a million people. The second time during the 40 year wandering that Moses came to Meribah, God told Moses to SPEAK to the rock. Moses acted in anger, in the heat of the moment and struck the rock. Because of that, Moses was forbidden to go into the promised land.


    Moses took it personally, lost his cool in the heat of the moment. Moses had enough person to person, face to face contact with God to know that God was doing something symbolic in these wanderings, that it was symbolic of something greater.


    The Lies of satan:


    1. There is an ultimate reconciliation. That even the devil can be forgiven. That you can appeal to foreign gods and receive forgiveness and reach Heaven (the promised land).


    Moses struck the rock from which living water flowed. God did not punish the Israelites when their leader was in error. Moses is the equivalent of the LAW, and the only way the Law can enter the promised land is through the Living Water. You are clean because of the Word, and under the law you are only clean if you did not break the Law.  The Spoken Word, under the New Covenant (the shed blood of Jesus), is what breaks the curse.


    I will continue this tomorrow. Kids need computer NOW, sigh.


    Heather


     

  • Oh my, between my husband needing the computer for business and the kids for school and games, I am losing time on the computer big time. I am so sorry for that.


    I started getting some of the books you have suggested for Katherine, and picked up a few of the ones suggested for me. Plan to read them soon, but right now am in the midst of the Beth Moore study and a Revelation study by Kay Arthur, and the Discipleship course by Pastor Don. That combo is keeping me hopping.


    Here are a few things that I have learned from the video that accompanies the Beth Moore study. Some of these thoughts opened my eyes.


    Beth talks about comparing the verses of Genesis 18: 17-19 with Genesis 18:20-21


    The first set of verses is God speaking to Himself about whether or not He should speak to Abraham about Sodom, the second set of verses is God talking to Abraham.


    It shows that God’s actions are perfectly consistent with His thoughts and shows again Abraham’s role as Prophet. Beth thinks this is an awesome thought to keep in mind because God says that He knows the thoughts He thinks of us Jeremiah 29:11-12, and His thoughts are always perfect.


    The other thing she pointed out that seems true is that often God’s wonders are not always spelled out in the Bible, that we discover the wonderful nature of God in our walk with Him, but God spells out each and every warning, so that we cannot miss the warnings. We cannot say, you never told us this…God has.


    With the second discourse, Genesis 18:20-21 God is engaging Abraham to walk with Him so that He could teach Abraham to walk like Him. God is planning to check out Sodom before he brings down destruction on the city. He is showing that you don’t bring a harsh judgement on a city or a person without knowing the facts.


    Why would God call us into intercessionary prayer if He wasn’t going to hear what we say. I am touched that Abraham barters down God, and that God listens and responds.


    There are few people that God called “Friend”, one was Abraham and the other was Moses. Beth said, I want to know what it takes to be God’s friend. (me too!!!)  John 15:14-16 talks about obeying, and knowing the secrets of His heart. Agape love.


    God gives us permission to question Him too. In Job, the oldest book of the Bible, God lets Job ask the question of Would God do wrong? As we build our relationship with God and begin to trust Him, we begin to see that God sees more than we do, knows more than we do, and that we can trust Him to be a true and just. That God’s words and actions match is another good indicator.


    There was much more in the video, but these thoughts impacted me greatly.


    Hope you have a blessed day, and I can’t wait to get to your sites. We need to get more than one computer hooked up to the internet. I am feeling cut off these days.


    Heather